Who Do You Want To Be?

Who Do You Want To Be?Just a few days ago we celebrated the Resurrection of Jesus. What an amazing day! I am constantly baffled at the sacrifice that Jesus made for us just so that we could have a relationship with Father God. Wow!

At Revival Life Church we just recently ended a time of prayer, fasting, and personal devotion. During this time, God kept bringing up this question to me: “Who do you want to be?” In the beginning of the fast, this seemed like such a loaded question. By the end of the fast though, it was challenging, empowering, and an exciting question that I felt ready to answer.

Throughout scripture there’s a pattern of three different kinds of people:

  1. People who hide from God
  2. People who refuse to listen or do nothing at all
  3. People who obey and take action

Who do you want to be?

The people who first hid from God were the obvious Adam and Eve (Genesis 3). Their eyes were opened to the knowledge of good and evil, and thus recognized their sin and were afraid to be in the presence of God, so they hid. Jonah also hid from God, which resulted in him being swallowed up by a “great fish” (Jonah 1:17). Peter hid from Jesus by denying that he even knew Him after Judas betrayed Him (Luke 22:54-62). And then there is you and me. I know there have been many times I have hidden from God. That never got me anywhere! Life is so much more enjoyable following God and radically obeying in every season, whether I feel like it or not.

Then there are the people who don’t listen or do nothing with what God gave them. Pharaoh wouldn’t listen to God through Moses (Exodus 5) and so Egypt was struck by the multiple plagues. The Israelite people seemed to have a hard time with this one and often did not listen to God (Jeremiah 13, Numbers 32, Deuteronomy 28, etc) and they were stuck wandering the desert 40 years. There’s also the man from the parable of the talents who received only 1 talent from his master. His master wasn’t pleased to hear that when he returned this slave did nothing with the money he’d given to him (Matthew 25). Then we have the women who were with Mary Magdalene when they found the empty tomb after the resurrection. Mark 16:8 says, “They went out and fled from the tomb, for trembling and astonishment had gripped them; and they said nothing to anyone, for they were afraid.” Now at this point, Mary decided to obey God and go tell the disciples as Jesus instructed her too. But then Mark 16:11 says, “When they heard that He was alive and had been seen by her, they refused to believe it.” The disciples didn’t even obey! And again, after Jesus appeared to two of the disciples in a different form, Mark 16:13 says, They went away and reported it to the others, but they did not believe them either.” So then Jesus appears to them again and rebukes them for their unbelief, and they finally believed.

I know I can relate to this category of people as well. There have been far too many times where I have blatantly disobeyed God, or did nothing at all with what He showed me or spoke to me. It is easy to get lazy or set false guidelines on obeying God like, “Once I am in full-time ministry I’ll start doing _________”, or, “If God does _________, then I’ll do _________.” Don’t fall into that trap! Yes, it’s hard getting uncomfortable, but use it as an offering to God in what you do instead of letting the discomfort of obeying consume you. I have found that, in the end, obeying has always worked out better for me. It’s as if God really does have our best interests in mind.

Here are the people who I am trying to be more like in this season of deciding who I will be in God, instead of just letting life, or my comfort, decide for me. The people who not only obey God, but follow through and take action with what He has shown them or spoken to them. Noah found favor with God and obeyed Him in building the infamous Ark (Genesis 5). I bet everyone else wished they obeyed and listened to God when it started raining that day. Abraham obeyed God and through that God promised him: I will make you exceedingly fruitful, and I will make nations of you, and kings will come forth from you. I will establish My covenant between Me and you and your descendants after you throughout their generations for an everlasting covenant, to be God to you and to your descendants after you. I will give to you and to your descendants after you, the land of your sojourning, all the land of Canaan, for an everlasting possession; and I will be their God.” (Genesis 17:6-8) I don’t know about you but I wouldn’t mind God telling me all these things because of my obedience and favor with Him! The disciples who obeyed Jesus’ command to “go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.” (Mark 16: 15) They obeyed regardless of what would come of it- the beatings, imprisonments, and even deaths. And then there is Paul, who obeyed God in traveling thousands of miles preaching the word of Jesus. 

My desire is to fearlessly run after God and radically obey Him, no matter how it looks. Comfort can no longer be what drives us. Being a person of action to what God is speaking takes precedent.

It may not be an easy question for you to answer but it does need to be answered. Who do you want to be? God is so, so good. He gives us the freedom to choose to follow Him, to love Him, to obey Him. You can obey and follow through with the call of God on your life afraid. Sometimes we think we need to have it all together first, but that just isn’t true. Step out, do something different, and God will meet you where you are at.

Decide who you want to be, and don’t let anything stop you from walking in your God-given identity and purpose. He won’t let you down!

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To the Insignificant…

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…“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name; you are Mine!
Isaiah 43:1


Can we be real for a minute? At one point or another in your life you have probably felt insignificant. It could have been in a relationship, at your job, with your spouse, or even in ministry.

Let’s talk about what it could look like in a ministry setting. You’ve got some people who minister from a pulpit, on a microphone, in front of a crowd or large group. Typically those would be the preachers and the worship leaders. Then you have the other roles that might happen mid-week, or mostly behind the scenes. It is easier to look at the more public roles and feel like your role is insignificant if you are doing anything different then they are. But they can’t do what they do (preach the gospel & usher in the presence of God) without the other members of the body of Christ walking in their roles. Church is an easy example. The pastor of a church cannot successfully share his/her message if all the other church ministries aren’t being taken care of. Children’s ministry teams, usher teams, technology teams, hospitality teams, etc. all have to happen in order for a Sunday morning church serve to run relatively smooth. It is easy to look at the people who get to sing on stage, preach a message, or share some type of encouragement publicly, and feel like what you do behind closed doors goes unseen or unappreciated.

It is the opposite! So many things in life can’t happen efficiently without the work behind closed doors. Businesses cannot run with only one person. Many, many people are needed to ensure that a business runs smoothly. The same is true in a ministry or church setting.

Worship leaders for example put in hours of practice and rehearsing before hitting a stage. What you see on a Sunday morning isn’t all they’ve done to prepare. Just because they are on stage with a microphone, doesn’t mean they’ve never felt insignificant either. It is easier to think they don’t ever feel this way because they get to be “seen” or use their gifts publicly. That isn’t true.

The feeling of insignificance is a real problem that we face today. The enemy knows how to make you feel like less than you are. But Jesus has more to say about you.

But guess what? Unfortunately isn’t just up to leadership in your life, your spouse, your friend, your job, or your mom, to fix your feelings for you. YOU are powerful, and you can control they way you feel. It is tough. But it’s worth it.

The word insignificant is defined as “too small, unimportant to be worth consideration, meaningless, or without power or influence.”

If you have identified, or are currently identifying with any of the above, I have something to tell you.

Jesus calls you significant. Stop agreeing with anything contradicting that. I know, I know, easier said then done, but its worth trying. I have felt this way many times in my life. And here are some things that I have either said to myself, someone I love told me, or God Himself told me in those moments. I want to encourage you today. If you are feeling insignificant in any area of your life, declare these things over yourself. Do it everyday until you feel different. Read your bible, pray, and ask God what He thinks about you and your role.


You are important
You are worth Jesus dying for
You are powerful
You have something that someone else needs
You have something to offer this world
You are valuable
Who you are is more important then what you can do for others
You are gifted
You are loved
You are anointed
You are fearfully and wonderfully made
You have a purpose
You are going to make it

YOU ARE SIGNIFICANT


 

Walking Empowered Devotion: God Wants It More- Day 5

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The final post in this 5 day devotion. My vision for this devotion is to give you 5 keys to walking empowered (although there are a ton). The good news here: we are victorious, and not defeated. God is on our side and we can do the impossible things He has called us to through Him.


Here is a quick recap of the 5 keys to walking empowered:

  1. Be strong and couragous
  2. Trust fully in God
  3. Don’t just “get through it”
  4. Be you
  5. Recognize that God wants it more 

The bible is full of stories of miracles, healings, salvations, and just overall goodness! What strikes me about some of these scriptures are the times when Jesus just healed someone without the person necessarily wanting it or asking for it. He is just so good like that, His heart towards everyone is the same. He wants the best for us.

One of my favorites is from Mark 5 when Jesus healed the man being tormented by evil spirits who couldn’t be bound by chains. When Jesus entered the country of the Gerasene, that man came running to Jesus and the evil spirits that were tormenting the man begged Jesus not to torment them. Jesus then commanded the spirits to leave and they did but entered the swine near by. The swine ended up drowning in the sea. The man himself didn’t ask to be set free, Jesus just did it.

At the moment I believe Jesus wanted healing and freedom for that man more then he did.

Side note: What is crazy to me is that the people living in that place saw the breakthrough change in the possessed man- and then told Jesus to leave?! What?! Oh well. 

Scriptures like these give me peace when it comes to meditating on the things that I feel like God wants me to accomplish in this life. There are things in life that we want to do, accomplish, see happen, etc that yes God wants for us too. But do you ever think about how much MORE God might want it for us? And it isn’t just about works- its also healing, salvation for our families, etc. that God wants more then we do.

He sent His son to die for these things. But yet we want to pretend like we want it more then God does because if we don’t see it immediately, we act as though we’ve been left in the dessert. We need to quit feeling sorry for ourselves because we don’t see it yet and instead seek Gods heart towards it. All of our desires (given that they are biblical and not sin of course) God wants for us too. He wants them more for us then we do!

I wonder what would happen if you viewed all those things in your life that weren’t going “right” they way He does? From a kingdom perspective, from a place of God wanting it more then we ever could? How would that change what is or isn’t happening in your life right now?

Time after time we don’t obey the things God has told us to do, as simple or profound as they may be, but then we don’t understand why our life is a mess in certain areas. We sometimes need to stop and take a step back and consider our ways (Haggai 1:7). I’m not saying God is punishing us because of what we may or may not have done. But we can’t expect God to do everything He has said he’d do for us if we aren’t doing the simple things he’s asked us to do ourselves. He may want stuff more for us, but if we don’t also want it, then we are going no where. God takes delight in knowing how invested we are in Him. Just as we have the need to be loved, He does too.

God is a Father first then a king- meaning his identity is a Father, not just a “ruler”. He is far more interested in doing stuff WITH us then us doing stuff FOR him. Just as an earthly parent wants more for their children then they had, how much more does God? When we recognize that these things we want to do for God, that God wants more, there is something unstoppable that takes place. Recognizing God as Father first above all, and letting him fill us and teach us about His nature, can transform the way we see the world around us. In order to walk empowered, we need to recognize who our Father is. We need to see how much He loves us, and how much more He wants things for us then we do. And it isn’t just things relating to God being glorified that He wants. Simple desires we have, He still wants more for us. He is a good Father. Allow God to show you how much more He wants things for you. Allow Him to reveal His loving nature to you so that you can in turn transform this world for His glory.

If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!” Matthew 7:11 (NASB)

I like the way that the Message version explains it too:
“Don’t bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This isn’t a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we’re in. If your child asks for bread, do you trick him with sawdust? If he asks for fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? As bad as you are, you wouldn’t think of such a thing. You’re at least decent to your own children. So don’t you think the God who conceived you in love will be even better?

 

Walking Empowered Devotion: Just Be You- Day 4

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For the next couple days I will be sharing a short devotion with you. My vision for this devotion is to give you 5 keys to walking empowered (although there are a ton). The good news here: we are victorious, and not defeated. God is on our side and we can do the impossible things He has called us to through Him.



We all have a person, or people, that we look up too. We may have our own ministry heroes we’d love to be like, marriages we want to mimic, or just genuine people we see and want to mirror. Seeing qualities in others that you want to have in yourself can be good. But when you down play who you are individually because you aren’t them is where the problem is.

Specifically let’s talk about the ministry hero. There may be someone in ministry who has been saved longer, seen more miracles, or doing exactly what you feel called to be doing. Now, think about that person you look up too. What traits do you see in them that you want to see in yourself? What miracles have they seen that you long to see? What does their life aside from ministry look like in comparison to yours? Do you know what exactly they went through to get where they are now? Sometimes I think its easy for us to want what other ministers have because we don’t always want to sign up for all the other “stuff” that comes with it. The trials, the warfare, the loss, the heartache, etc. Now, I believe when you honor someone’s call, or gift, that there is something you can come into because of the path they’ve paved doing it themselves. But we forget- they are just people too. They have sin they are working through. They have weaknesses and things they struggle with. It might be different then what you are dealing with, but it is still something.

 Maybe they have overcome the exact thing that you are going through right now. Instead of comparing yourself to them or their situation, and getting frustrated that you don’t see it for yourself yet, trust that God wants breakthrough for you too. Trust that all the miracles, salvations, etc. He also wants to do through you! We need to stop comparing ourselves to the people around us and start believing in who God has made us. Just because it hasn’t happened for you yet, doesn’t mean God isn’t in the neighborhood! What do you admire most about them? Emulate that. Stop complaining about who you are not yet and start being who you want to be. Be the person you know God has made you. If you don’t feel it- believe and trust that that person is inside of you somewhere. Spend some quality time with God and let him show you who He wants you to be.

Some of the greatest moments I’ve had with God are when I just lay down and worship Him and allow Him to speak identity over me. This world is constantly throwing an identity at people that isn’t God. If we aren’t rooted in our foundational identity in Christ, then we can seriously miss the things He has for us. If you just embrace who you are, embrace the call, gifting, and anointing on your life- you are showing God that you are an open vessel. You show Him that you are surrendered to Him and how He wants to manifest Hid goodness towards others through you. When you walk in this, you show others that it is attainable for them as well. God created YOU for a reason. If we wanted a million of Heidi Bakers or John Arnott, don’t you think He would’ve created them? Being ourselves opens up the door for God’s radical love and affection in our life. We don’t know what embracing ourselves might look like for the generations that follow us. Walking empowered means being confident in who YOU are. Don’t downplay who God created. He wants you as you are. Speak this over yourself today: “I am important. I am valuable. I am worthy. I am a son/daughter of God. I am loved. I will come into all of the things God has for me.”

“I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:14 (NASB)

Key #4: Just be you

Walking Empowered Devotion: Don’t Just Get Through It- Day 3

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For the next few days I will be sharing a short devotion with you. My vision for this devotion is to give you 5 keys to walking empowered (although there are a ton). The good news here: we are victorious, and not defeated. God is on our side and we can do the impossible things He has called us to through Him.


I’m pretty tired of hearing people “just trying to get through it”. I know we all have our moments of weakness in life, but is God not bigger then the problem going on in your life at this very moment? Did He not create everything we see? When He was done, He rested and said, “It was good.” I am believing that means our lives should “be good” too. 

In today’s devotion I want to seriously challenge you to take control of the circumstances in your life. Don’t allow yourself to slump into the lie that you just need to get through it. to make it. Walking empowered means that you trust what God speaks over you and help make it happen. For example: God spoke to you that you’ll be a preacher. Great! But you aren’t getting any preaching opportunities. What is it that you are doing? Sitting around waiting for God of the universe to just make everything happen for you? No! He created you with that desire in your heart. He gave you a voice, so use it. There are a million places you could go preach- Walmart, Whole Foods, a college campus, the mall, and the list goes on. The glamorous stadium you envisioned isn’t going to come unless you do what God has said before it actually looks like a stadium.

Here’s another example. This is the one that really gets me. So, we know in Proverbs it talks about the power of our tongue and what we say. A sign that we might be “just getting through it” is when the majority of what comes out of your mouth sounds a lot like complaining. I mean how long can we complain about the same thing over and over, even though God has already spoken to us about our victory? We can’t expect our circumstances to change if all we are doing is speaking death over them. Now, I know sometimes we fall on hard times, this isn’t what I am referring too. I am referring to things for example- always complaining that your broke even though your finances have gotten better. How long are you going to continue to speak that way over that situation before you realize that God is listening to you! Of course He wants us to prosper- and no I am not saying God is keeping you broke- but take some responsibility here. Get out of that poverty mindset and step into the mindset of the Kingdom. The bible is so clear:

“Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.” Proverbs 18:21 (NASB)

Right there the bible says we will eat the fruit of what we say. It needs to be our desire to sow good seed not just in our actions, but also in what we speak. God gives us the abilities to walk in the identity He has given us. I don’t want my life to just happen to me- I want to have an active role in seeing my God purpose come to fruition. Giving God your “yes” has to look like something more then sitting around waiting for the ultimate call to just happen to you. It is hard to believe that sometimes this looks like a choice. It is so easy for people to play the victim and not believe God for what He has spoken. Playing the victim will not get you anywhere worth while. Save yourself some time and heartache and choose to be empowered by who God has called you to be and be confident in that identity and let that run the course for your life. Don’t let circumstances steal the joy Jesus died for. Choose to speak life and not death and watch how the situations will change around you. Walk empowered today!

 Key #3: Don’t just get through it

Walking Empowered Devotion: Trusting Something- Day 2

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For the next few days I will be sharing a short devotion with you. My vision for this devotion is to give you 5 keys to walking empowered (although there are a ton). The good news here: we are victorious, and not defeated. God is on our side and we can do the impossible things He has called us to through Him.


 

Everyone is trusting something- at all times. Even if you categorize yourself as someone with “trust issues”, you are still trusting something. Didn’t realize that? It’s true! You may either be trusting yourself, the enemy, or God. It is easy to trust all three at different times and not even realize we’ve strayed away from solely trusting God. Here are some ways you can recognize which category of trust you may fall under:

Trusting yourself: This looks like always having a “plan B” in case God doesn’t actually come through. It may even look like choosing not to believe a promise of God or deciding to do it in your own strength. Often can be situations when we decide our timing is more important than Gods. This kind of trust usually doesn’t work out well. Trusting everything to your own efforts will seriously let you down!

Trusting the enemy: This looks like allowing your fear, depression, or anxiety run your life. Those things are all fruit of allowing the enemy to dictate what voice you are obeying. Often times we go with that voice in our head that tells us all of the reasons why we can’t do something, or how it isn’t going to turn out well. Don’t trust that voice! We have to recognize God’s promises for us and go with those. Don’t forget: when Jesus was tested in the wilderness for 40 days, the enemy often tested him with truth. But Jesus knew the timing of His Father and what His heart was! Stay inside the will of God. This kind of trust to evil definitely doesn’t work out well. Trusting everything to the enemy will seriously, seriously let you down!

Trusting God: Now I’d love to tell you how this looks like a piece of cake, lots of wonderfulness, and easy peasy day and night, but that isn’t always true. I would love to paint a picture of a huge beautiful rainbow, but do you remember how we got that rainbow? Floods. Many times trusting God may look like this: favor, lots of the Father’s love, peace in decisions, freedom, grace, and miracles, etc. I know I have had these seasons of what trusting God has looked like. There have been other times where trusting God meant I was unsure of how a situation would turn out but still obeyed, not knowing where the money for our bills would come from, not getting pregnant month after month after month, but I knew God was on my side and His timing was perfect-not mine. Often trusting God can look really exciting and even easy, and other times you might find yourself crying out saying, “God where the heck are you?!”. But you know what? I’ve never once regretted trusting Him. I have never looked back and thought, “Man, I wish I trusted myself there. If only I had listened to the devil!”. No thanks! He always, in every situation, worked things together for my good- and He still is. God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Trusting Him has always worked out well. Trusting God will certainly not let you down!

I am going to continue to go with trusting God. I want to leave a legacy for having a fearless trust in Him. His ways are so much better than mine or my fears. No matter what the enemy is saying to you or about you, God is still speaking bigger and better things over you! It may take time, and may be a bit scary, but it is ok to put your full trust in God. He know’s you might be hesitant or afraid, but those things don’t matter to him. He desires that you would be fully healed of that and surrendered to His plans for your life. Although there may be times when we think we have a better way- we don’t. He is always good and always has our best interests in mind. You are worthy to receive all of God’s blessings. Don’t allow yourself to think otherwise. I give you permission  (like you need my permission 😛 ) to shut out the voice of the enemy, and lets be honest- ourselves, and choose to trust God and God alone to be empowered to hear the goodness He has for us and walk in it. 

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5 (NASB)

“The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the defense of my life;
Whom shall I dread?” Psalm 21:1 (NASB)

Key #2: Trust fully in God

Walking Empowered Devotion: Be Strong and Courageous- Day 1

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For the next few days I will be sharing a short devotion with you. My vision for this devotion is to give you 5 keys to walking empowered (although there are a ton). The good news here: we are victorious, and not defeated. God is on our side and we can do all of the impossible things He has called us to do through Him.


 

“Be strong and courageous.” When I first heard this phrase, taken from passage of scripture, I was pretty excited about it. It sounds so good and encouraging! But then, life would happen, and I felt like this phrase was the “answer without really being an answer” caveat that was just thrown into Christian conversations. It was as if actual faith was too much and saying this was supposed to be our good wholesome Christian answer. I don’t know about you, but I thrive off living in faith, and I don’t care about having “good” answers. I want to speak what Jesus is speaking. It would usually happen when someone was having some kind of difficulty going on in their life. For example: Lost your job? Be strong and courageous. Financial problems? Be strong and courageous. Marriage problems? Be strong and courageous. Facing a new challenge in life? Be strong and courageous.

It sounds so good, but being strong and courageous isn’t just meant to be the good Christian “answer” for when things are going wrong, or not how we expected. We need to operate in a better level of faith. Our identity to walking this life with Jesus is to be empowered by the tools He’s given us. One of those tools is to live from a place of being strong and courageous. That means being that way when- can you believe it- things are going well too.

For me personally, I feel I can accomplish this by living with a thankful mindset no matter what a situation in front of me looks like. Which means that if it is good or bad, I am still thankful. I declare the truth of God over my life, pray, worship, get around other christians, get filled by the word of God, etc. These are all things you have been equipped to do! Human nature says that when things go wrong we need to hide and isolate ourselves. This isn’t how the Kingdom of Heaven is run. I am still doing the things I mentioned above when I feel things spiraling in a negative way. But if I am not doing these things when everything is going right, then every time I come to Jesus about something, it’s always from a place of need. “God I need you because everything sucks right now, this isn’t going right, blah blah blah”. I want my relationship with God to be more then that: the sum of my negative life experiences being complained about. I want Jesus to know how thankful I am, how much I adore Him, and how much I need him when things are going perfectly.

Now I am sure it’s just me, but I wasn’t born this way. Before I met Jesus, the world taught me to be timid, shy, not to speak up, and so many ungodly things. For me, being strong and courageous, was something I really had to learn. But I am still learning it! I still at times can react to a situation based off who I used to be- not who God says I am.

Today: Say that you are strong and courageous. Not just because things need to be better, or because it sounds Holy and righteous, but because it is who God says you are. This needs to be a part of our identity so that we can begin or keep walking empowered.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 (NASB)

Key #1: Be strong and courageous

Whose Boundaries Are You Following?

I was on a run this morning and God was talking to me. I love it when that happens. The finishlineGod of the universe cares so much about us, and being with us, that He talks no matter what we are doing. I love living a life in tune with Holy Spirit. I NEVER want to miss out on God talking to me because I get too busy, or too caught up with whatever I am doing. I’m pretty sure if God is talking, it’s got to be important.

So I recently started running. I’ve always loved the idea of it, just not the actual act (haha!). My shins used to always hurt (shoe problem- but not anymore!), I would get too tired after only a little while, and it just wasn’t fun for me. Since I started running about a month ago, I have come to really enjoy it. I enjoy it even more when I feel like God has joined me on my run.

My neighborhood is about 1.5 miles around, and I usually just run that route. That was the route I had decided to take this morning. On my run I kept mentally saying things like “Ok I’ll stop when I hit that turn, that mail box, or when I hit ‘x’ miles”. As soon as I kept setting these stopping points, or boundaries for myself I immediately heard God: “Whose boundaries are you following?” That moment was a serious heart check for me. I never want to be outside of the will of God, and I don’t think that I am, but I was setting boundaries for myself in my run (and in my life) that wasn’t allowing me to reach my full potential. My head wanted to have clear break points, my body was saying that I could keep going.

I feel like this is true for some people in their walks with Jesus. We set up these boundaries, or stopping points, where we say, “Ok God, I’ll do this thing up to this point” or, “I’ll only do this_____if this______…” It’s like we have a plan B if God doesn’t come through, or if we get to a point where we feel like we can’t handle it anymore.

For the first time, I ran the entire 1.5 miles around my neighborhood without stopping. I felt like it was a prophetic moment for me.

I hope I can encourage you this morning. Encourage you to trust that God knows who He called when He called you to do whatever it is. Trust that He knows what season you are in, whether right now is an easy or difficult one. Trust that you can do it all through Him and not in your own strength. As long as we trust Him, we can make it to the finish line.

Change!

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I think as scary as change can be, it is usually good. I feel like I go through seasons where I am all for change- and then there are times where I want everything to stay exactly how it is.

Right now, I feel like I am in a season of change. The change is good though! God has been talking me about change in multiple areas of my life…but honestly I am not always so quick to trust Him. That is the key really–TRUST.

A big change that I recently shared was that I opened my own Etsy shop. I have always enjoyed crafting with friends, and people always mentioned in passing that I should sell my stuff. I always liked the idea, but never had a desire to do it. Lately though, I have been feeling like God was really on this, and telling me it was time to open up a shop. Do I know why? No. Does it matter? Not really. This is part of my season of change- trusting without needing to know the end result.

I hope this can encourage you tonight. Encourage you to trust in God without needing to know why He is asking you to do something, go somewhere, say something, etc.

I know trust is hard, it takes vulnerability. God is so worthy to be vulnerable with. He is so, so, so good. You never know what trusting Him can do to change your life. Maybe my Etsy shop will get really popular and make tons of money ;-). Or maybe, there is someone who needs to be encouraged down the road, and I will be able to connect with them through my store.

I am excited for this season of change. When God is in something- it usually rocks!

“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13 (NLT)

So I’ve Decided To Give Up Perfection

large_praying_handsI have been a mom now for about 5 months (a little over a year actually if you count pregnancy) and I LOVE it. I look at my son and I feel so honored and blessed that God hand picked me to be his mom. Now that I am a stay at home mom, it is hard to make my own schedule,set “boundaries” from work and home life, and turn my brain off. Seriously – that whole turn off your brain thing is so tough!

I am the kind of person who feels that my worth, value, whatever you want to call it, is based off of what I can do for those around me. As I stay home, it is my job to take care of my family and my home. There’s a never ending of list of things I could be doing, need to do, or want to do. Finding balance in everyday life is hard. I want to be the best mom, wife, daughter, friend, and person that I can be.

To be “the best” I was feeling  like everything needed to be perfect. The baby, the home, my relationships, my ministry, and myself. If all of these things weren’t perfect- well then I was failing. But that is not the case…Praise God!

As I was putting my son to sleep tonight, I was running through the millions of lists in my head of what I needed to do before laying down to bed, and what my day would hold for me tomorrow. I was missing the snuggle love moment with my boy, who is growing very fast, and was focusing on all the things I needed to do to be perfect. God was talking to me.

I have been missing the good stuff. Not just with my son, but with everything. I have been so focused lately on not wanting to mess up, or disappoint the people in my life, that I lost sight of the good stuff!

My house is not perfect, so I spend any second I get working on making it look perfect. I miss the good stuff with my son.

My ministry is not perfect, so I spend whatever chance I get researching, reading, googling. I miss the good stuff God is doing with the children.

My relationships are not perfect, so I spend my time focusing on how I have failed the people in my life. I miss the good stuff going on with those I love.

This is not an excuse to be lazy, procrastinate, or not to care. This doesn’t mean my house can be a hot mess, my boy not taken care of, my ministry just stagnant, etc. God is challenging me to be the person He has called me to be in this season, and He wants the things going in my life to prosper, but he wants me to enjoy the process! I was (and still am- I’m working on it 😉 ) so focused on what wasn’t going right, or what needed to improve, that I have been missing things God has been trying to teach me and show me in this season. I love when God takes something as simple as putting my son to bed as an opportunity to speak to me. I am so happy that I was listening.

I hope that this little post can encourage you tonight. Encourage you to enjoy the process. Don’t miss the good stuff going on in your life because you have this other expectation of how it should be. God knows exactly where you are in life and what you have going on. He’s never going to let you down!

I’ve decided to give up perfection, and trust God. In Him and Him alone I can be made perfect. The problem was that I have been trying to do it in my own strength. That’s never a good idea. His strength is always better.